1.) You wake up (late) and you feel heavy inside.
2.)Your thoughts are scattered and you can’t focus well on one task whether that be cleaning off your desk or picking out your clothes for the day.
3.) You are frustrated easily over the smallest things like your sandals coming off when you’re walking or struggling to turn the handle to the shower.
4.) You feel paranoid. Like, somehow, the world is working against you.
5.) You criticize yourself, for being human. Why did I message that guy? Am I needy? I haven’t worked out in a while…I’m failing…why am I failing? I’m freaking lonely and this sucks.
6.) The negative thoughts pour through your brain and you try to stop them up with funny YouTube videos, nosing about through your Facebook feed, watching some Netflix. You become discontent when you realize that you don’t do a very good job at distracting yourself, from yourself.
7.) You go to bed late because you are not convinced that the internet, for once, doesn’t have the answer. 1 am rolls by and the Buzzfeed channel hasn’t said anything you couldn’t guess. 2 am gallops by and Jim and Pam’s relationship office relationship has you feeling a bit green inside. 3 am saunters in and you are doing intense research on how the bullet journaling system could work for you…but then you slowly recoil at the sight of numerous layouts, stationary flair (that you don’t have), the apparent necessity for pricy notebooks that have graph paper inside of them, and colored writing utensils that make a ballpoint options look pathetic.
8.) You reflect and decide to be honest with yourself. I’m having a sucky day emotionally, but I gotta blog. I gotta get my camera fixed. Gotta do laundry.
And guess what? Theres a whatever percent chance that tomorrow will be better.